I’m Lost

Whiney Bimbo Rant

Maybe it’s the “dog days of summer”. Maybe it’s the next step in my evolution. Maybe I’ve been looking in the wrong places. Maybe it’s my new-found freedom (I have a lot more available time now). Maybe it’s the difficult July gone by. But my motivation and creativity are at a low point. Thank gawd for Kim. She’s always been the most consistent, most supportive force in my life.

I know I’m motivated by commitment. When I worked, I was committed to my job, my company, and I think I did well. And I was looking for this project, this little website, to take it’s place. It has, and it’s hasn’t.

One thing I learned about doing this site …. I’m doing it alone. Although I find it exciting, that excitement is hard to maintain when everyone else seems indifferent. I know, if I’m not doing it for myself I shouldn’t be doing it at all. And maybe that’s the harsh reality.

So I need to dig down to find something in here that “turns my crank”. Something that keeps me going.

It may be time for some changes. I’ve been thinking long and hard lately about my chatroom .. the one here on this site. It may have outlived it’s usefulness. I dunno.

The message board that I scrapped several months ago. I’ve learned a lot about website building in the last year and could now come up with something that’s much more user-friendly. Maybe it needs to come back. I dunno.

Business. The commitment and excitement I might feel when I’m providing a service could be all the motivation I need.  A pay site? Merchandise sales? Photog services?  I dunno, but rest assured that if I venture into this area, I’ll be totally professional.

Hmmm .. excitement!  Maybe that’s it.  I’m beginning to feel that if I don’t generate some soon … well, you know.

My site is coming up on it’s one year anniversary in a couple weeks and I’ve gone from an average of 6 hits per day in the first month to just under 150 hits per day now, and I’ve had over 17,000 people enter via my main page.  Okay, but not great.

Please know that I’m aware I’m behind on my Photo Gallery updates, but I’ve shot quite a bit yet don’t feel that I’ve done anything worthy of being here.

So .. change the site or change my attitude regarding it. Something’s needs to change. I owe it to you .. and to myself.

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