Category Archives: Personal Stuff

Remembrance Day 2017 – Lest We Forget

For the first time in the history of my country, our despicable Prime Minister Trudeau will not be in the country to lay a wreath at the tomb of the unknown soldier.

He may have forget but we will remember and we will NOT “take a knee.”

Please pause for a moment at 11:00 am this morning to remember those who made the ultimate sacrifice.

 

“Know when to ‘shush’, Seleena.”

SeleenaK20160309_220013sGood advice .. from me to me.  Just wish I would have heard that advice a little sooner.  But avoiding the politics of life is just not easy these days.

So on that note, I haven’t had much to say here lately.  But I think that’s okay.

Other that the upcoming visit from sweeties D and C (which I’m really, really looking forward to), I’m still laying low and staying in a world where smiling is easy.

Because smiling is important, isn’t it?

Upcoming Event – 2016 Scarlett’s Maine Event

As some of you already know, I’m a huge fan of Scarlett’s Maine Event.  I went to the inaugural event last year (and wrote about it here) and had a wonderful time.

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If this seems like the type of event that you might enjoy, plan now to attend and let me know you’ll be there.

This year’s event is September 14-18 2016 in Ogunquit Maine – “a beautiful place by the sea”.

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2013 Highlights and Lowlights

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Yet another year is in the books.  2013 was an interesting year for me.  Not the most exciting year ever but quite interesting just the same.

On the positive side, I won a couple little contests through my online hi-jinx on Facebook and Twitter.  A few pairs of pantyhose from Gilt City New York , a corset from my favourite corset shop Orchard Corset  and a three piece lingerie set (complete with nylons) from Gossard Lingerie and Aristoc Hosiery in the UK.

Although I do appreciate receiving these types of gifts, the most fun for me is in participating in their online promotions.  I suppose it gets me out of the trans world briefly and allows me to play a bit in the non-gender-dysphoric world.

I still fantasize that someday I’ll be asked to help market so many of the wonderful products I review for myself on a daily basis.  The transgender community makes up an ever-increasing part of the retro lingerie and hosiery market, and it appears most of the retailers realize this.  But god knows, some of them need help attracting transgender customers

But in addition to my little prize winnings in 2013,  I also:

  • was asked by The Lingerie Addict to review a blog entry (prior to publication) that dealt with body image and transgender world (Cora is my girl-crush; I think she’s smart, gorgeous and I respect her lots)
  • attended a couple TG conferences in the US.  Both the Keystone Conference in Harrisburg PA and Southern Comfort Conference in Atlanta GA were great fun.
  • got to spend more time with my friend Dianne
  • enjoyed following The Lingerie Addict, the Lingerie Lesbian,  Oh Jacquie Simone, Danielle (from Orchard Corset), Lee Ann (owner-operator L. Kink Clothing, Billy Patrick, Reg Nadkcin (sans groupie entourage), Ruth Johnston and the ever-wonderful Brian, the Aussie Biker.

But my hands-down, absolutely, most exciting moment came back in March when I had a very brief dialog with someone in outer space!  Now I know what you’re thinking … “she’s finally lost her mind”.  But it’s true.  For a HadfieldTwitter_sfew months, Canadian astronaut Chris Hadfield was the commander of the International Space Station and he was very accessible to the world in real time via Twitter.

I’m very conscious that I have the potential to cause embarrassment to people in the public eye.  Simply acknowledging someone like me can bring a negative response from a judgmental world so I always tread carefully in those areas.  But, I let one slip by.  I asked him a question and he replied!!  The question itself isn’t important out of context but he answered it!

This might not seem like a big deal to you but to me it was huge!   A t-girl, sitting at her desk on good old terra firma having a dialog with a national hero orbiting the earth at how-many-thousand miles per hour?  Woah!  When I saw his reply, my heart skipped a beat.

On the somewhat negative side, the King of the US still has the world hanging in uncertainty, political correctness is destroying much of the good in the world, liberals/progressives/academics have become mean and judgmental, and, once again, I’ve watched (from afar this time) more lives and families get destroyed due to that middle-age-crisis-transgender-manifestation.  But since I can’t protect everyone or help the entire world, they’re just not my problems, are they?

So, for 2014, I’d still love to get back into the photo and video groove that I lost a couple years ago.  I’m hoping I can make that happen but it’s doubtful.

I have no “fetishy” people in my life right now and I miss that lots.  No trying to get into my life; no looking to me for a full romantic sexual relationship.   No, no, no.  But let’s talk about your fetishes and I’m there.

Have a fabulous 2014!  I wish you health and happiness!

I’m Back!

ComputerTime_0123Well, I never really left. I’ve never been a deny-and-purge kinda girl. And although it might have appeared that I was neglecting my website, hardly a day went by without me thinking about it, it’s future, my online future. This is unrealistically important to me and I agonize of over it. It might be the only thing in my whole life that I agonize over these days.

So when an offer appeared to help upgrade my site with the latest and greatest, I jumped at the chance. Thank you to Victoria for all her help! To see her business and more of her work, click on the “powered by” link at the bottom of any of my pages. And if you, or anyone you know, is looking for a content management system or even a general purpose website, please chat with her. You’ll be glad you did.

The main page with it’s fancy art gallery look is done. I’m adding a couple photo albums to my current gallery everyday and I’m bringing forward all my old blog entries.

I’m still not sure which photo gallery and blog module I’ll end up with but I thought it was important to get something out here as soon as possible.

Give me some more time to work things out. I think you’ll be happy with the end result!

The Wildside Girls, My New Garter Belts and My Friend Lola

My girlfriends from Wildside are all in Las Vegas right now and I just know they’re having an awesome time. My Kim, my ‘man in black’ and I got to watch them on webcam last night from the party suite. Everyone looked wonderful and I really wished I was there with them. But a very important commitment keeps me at home this year and I have no regrets in not going to Las Vegas. There’s always next year.

My new garter belts arrived and they’re nearly perfect. The waist fit is great and the garter straps are really really short. I just wish that the back garter strap was positioned a little differently. It doesn’t line up, straight as an arrow, with the back seam loop in my stockings. But I’m not complaining .. they’ll work just fine for me. I hope to show you what they look like soon.

I’d like to acknowledge a dear friend of mine on a huge accomplishment. Lola Lamour, from the gorgeous area south of San Francisco, is now a black belt in jiu-jitsu. It was almost 5 years of hard work and focus that got her there and I’m so proud of her. She’s like a ninja only way hotter 🙂 Not only gorgeous but lethal too 🙂 Congrats darlin’! Enjoy Las Vegas .. you deserve some chill time. Chill time in Las Vegas? Not a chance! But still … enjoy.

No Longer Accepting Gifts

The mailing address previously listed on my Gift page is no longer valid. I ran into a situation there just before Christmas where I was led to believe there was a parcel waiting for me but on my arrival it was nowhere to be found. I wasn’t waiting for a personal order so I can only assume it was from one of you. Or maybe it was just a mistake on their end.

Having something go missing is not as much of an issue as not knowing who might have sent it. Needless to say our conversation didn’t go well and I promised that I would not renew there. So time has run out.

If you’ve saved this address, please delete it. I’ll provide another one closer to home (right here in the city) when it becomes available.

My wishlists are all turned off and I’m not accepting gifts these days so hopefully this will not be an issue.

But thank you, thank you, thank you to those of you who were kind enough to send my gifts recently!

Holiday Prep

Well that was a crazy couple of weeks but I now have time to catch my breath and relax over the holidays.

Our houseguests are safely back in the desert and all my Christmas prep is done. Presents bought and wrapped, Casa Seleena is festively decorated, the fridge is full and the bar is well stocked. Bring on the holidays!

What’s gone on since my last update? Well, my website finally surpassed the 100,000 views plateau one week ago (Monday December 13th). It took a while to get here but you know my feelings; quality before quantity always!

Sara and Mark’s visit was wonderful! I may have a little video for you some time soon but sadly we were just too busy to do any still photos. I hate to admit it but my mind was not really on my site while they were here. I hope you understand.

My imposter is still “impostering” (hehe!) on Yahoo. I filed a complaint in hopes that Yahoo would see the obvious but it appears they need a sworn statement from me with details to support my claim. I’ll do this but I need to understand the action they will take. Simply shutting down a profile is not enough. I need them to block the ip address and file a complaint to the person’s internet service provider. Or provide me with the IP so that I can take care of things. Recent changes to legislation make this identity theft.

I’ve received some legal advice (free!) and know what I can and can’t do.

On another, more positive note, the solstice is here, the lunar eclipse was cool and the holidays are just days away. Where does the time go?

I hope to have some festive photos for you on Friday but I’d like to take a moment now to wish you all the best of the holiday season. Please take the time to tell someone close to you that they’re important to you, just like I’m about to do here.

Thank you all for being a part of my life. You really are important to me!

Merry Christmas. Eat too much! Drink too much! Hug too much!

A Visit From Our Friends

OMG! The gorgeous and extremely sexy Sensual Sara, formerly of sensualsara dot com, and her hubbie, the very dapper Mark, are coming to stay with Kim and me for a week. They arrive today.

They’re our best friends in the whole world and we know it will be a hot week here regardless how chilly it gets outside.

Don’t you wish she would get her website back online? I know I do.

If I’m really nice to Sara and Mark, it’s possible that they’ll help me with some photos or a video that I can share with you. And with any luck, my Kim will make an appearance too!

But with those two pairs of gorgeous legs in front of the camera, I’m wearing slacks!

What a way to close out the year!

Now .. on a less positive note, it appears there is an imposter on Yahoo pretending to be me. This person created a “Seleena K” profile on 06/16/10, claims to be female and has stolen and posted some photos from my website. They even went to the trouble of removing the copyright I add to all of my photos.

I’m certainly not female and my Yahoo profile has been around since 2005.

I’m pursuing this with Yahoo through their “Copyright and Intellectual Property Policy” and will take more serious action if the profile isn’t removed in the next couple days.

Please be aware that my Yahoo profile has been “hidden” between February 2010 and today, so any communication from Yahoo during that time did not come from me, except for those of you I IM with.

Some say that “imitation is the sincerest form of flattery” but flattery from an imposter and a thief is of little value. If you’ve run into this person on the web, please let me know.

Get a life, dude! and a big thanks to Navy Guy for bringing this to my attention.

Please don’t call me “dear”, dear!

“Yes dear” .. “No dear”.  I’ve been getting a lot of that lately from a few different girls.  Why does that rub me the wrong way?  I’m not sure but it does.

Is it a term of endearment or condescension?

I think it takes me back to a time in my life when teachers, neighbour’s mom’s or distant relatives spoke to me in a condescending way.

Many of the girls I interact with have had the feminine thing trapped inside for many years and are just now starting to deal with the world from that perspective.  Where do they go to learn how to behave and interact?  Well, the easiest place to go for this type of info is our own memory.

But that was then and this is now. If you’re intention is to talk down to me, please continue with the “dear” thing, but if you’re not, I’d love ya forever if you’d use something else.

beaudet_smallBefore I go, I need to comment on the airport security “pat down’s” and full body scanners that are in the news a lot these days. This type of screening is particularly troublesome for girls like me. I can only assume a real terrorist threat is imminent and feel that saving lives is more important than anonymous indiscretion. “But I have my rights Seleena!”.  Yes you do.  You have a right to stay home.  Because if an airline gets brought down, it might be my sorry ass  or yours that gets squished in the process.

But in my mind I can’t help but giggle at the thought of those poor people behind the scenes that have to look at an endless stream of naked-ish bodies.

With same-sex screening, I picture a male agent at one video screen and a female at the other as a group of trans-men and trans-girl travelers go through the scanners. She sees male “parts, he sees female “parts” and they bump into each other as they try desperately to switch workstations. hehe!

On a serious note, Happy Thanksgiving to all my friends in the USA.  Enjoy the turkey, and if you’re doing any Black Friday or Cyber Monday shopping, pick up a little something for your favourite web hottie. And if there’s a few cents left over, get something for me too. <winks>

My Website’s 3rd Anniversary

Yikes!  I just realized that I missed mentioning that SeleenaK dot com turned 3 years old just over a month ago.

I suppose it’s a meaningless milestone but to me it’s an accomplishment.  I really didn’t expect to still be here but your encouragement has kept me going.

I’ve considered making changes .. big changes .. several times but keep coming back to what seems to work for me and for you right now.

My wardrobe budget is still tight, and my search for a photographer to help me has brought some possibilities but nothing firm yet.  But ya know what?  I’ll continue doing what I’m doing as long as you keep coming back.

Doing this is important to me.  And I do it for you, and for me.

You Had To Be There

So a guy walks into a bar with his pet alligator. Oops! Wrong story.

I was out with friends recently. Some I had never met in person and a few that I hadn’t seen in a long time. And someone asked “So .. what’s new?”

Without hesitation, the cute one, who resembles Drew Barrymore, sitting right in the middle of us all spoke right up “Well, I have a pussy now!”

That was very, very funny Melan.  Congrats again on your surgery and thanks for sharing that with us *giggling*.

Any “news” the rest of us had to share seemed inconsequential after that. 🙂

Feet

Either you love them or you hate them.  Well, I guess you could be indifferent to them too.  But there is a huge number of you, both men and women, who find feet terribly erotic.

SeleenaK_0343sPersonally, I do find them erotic, especially when clad in ultra-sheer nylon. To me, they are another very erogenous part of the body not to be ignored.  But over the years I’ve become quite adaptive in my preferences.

If feet are your thing, I’m in!  And maybe obsessively, because it’s all about pleasing your partner, isn’t it?

Have you ever been somewhere, out in public maybe, and noticed some freshly-pedicured toes and thought to yourself ‘how hot it would be to take them in your mouth, one at a time, and gently lick and suck each one?  I know I have.  And from some of the comments and requests I get here, I know many of you feel the same way.

This erotically flexible (or maybe confused) bimbo also loves to come at this from the other side.  Feeling your warm fingers and hot wet tongue massaging my feet and sucking my toes makes me wetter that a Navy Seal.

But the problem for me is that I’m a visual girl and I get quite frustrated with the appearance of my own feet and toes.  No matter how well the pedicure went or how much lotion I massage in, I still think they look like “tranny feet”.   I’ve included a couple recent photos here as “evidence” .. hehe!

“Sure I like to suck toes, but prefer to have my toes sucked.” ~ Madonna

Yes, there is genital surgery, facial surgery, breast augmentation, vocal chord surgery .. even a procedure to remove that lowest rib but to my knowledge there is no “fix” for tranny feet.

Now, I’m not a cosmetic surgery type of girl  and would likely be too afraid to risk any procedure that messes with those very important two things down there that allow me to wear heels with SeleenaK_0347svigor but it would be nice to  know that something exists for me to decline.  :-0

But to the rescue is YOU, faithful website visitor.  You seem to like my feet just the way they are!  And your comments are so sweet.

My favorite comment of all was one from a sweetie who was watching  one of my videos and emailed me to say “when you spread your nylon-clad toes, I gasped!” .

Why my emphasis on feet these days?  Karyn Lord, a gorgeous, sweet and very sexy genetic woman on my favorite nylon fetish website, openly shares her passion for feet in words and photos and frankly I’ve been caught up in her whirlwind.

So, let me know if you’d like to see more of this type of thing here on my site.  Leg shots are still the most popular request, follow by bondage photos and videos, but if the demand is higher, I’ll do my best to accommodate.

Some final notes:   I’ve been a bit reclusive lately.  It seems to be a summer time thing for me. When the weather is warm, the patio here at home is where I’m happiest.  I hope to be a little more “out there” in the coming months but we’ll see how it goes.

I hope to have some photos to share with you of my exploits.

My 20-Something Transgender Friend

I met a new friend online recently. A very young TS who lives not too far away from me. I won’t tell you her name because that’s not important but she’s one of a very short list of very young trans girls that have left a very big impression on me. She’s as delightful and well spoken as the comedic Jessica Who and has an attitude that’s so different than most of the girls closer to my age.

The baggage and bitterness is not present; no chip on her sweet shoulders. She just lives her life 24/7 as she knows she should.

I’m not expert on the pre-op or post-op thing although I do know several girls who have had the surgery and even more that are anxiously awaiting “the knife”.  For those waiting. the surgery is imperative; it’s non-negotiable and the feeling is that life can never be “normal” until it’s done.

And a surprisingly high percentage of them will take their own lives after the procedure is complete.

But here is a young person who truly believes that surgery wouldn’t make her any more of a woman than she is today.  And ya know what?  I agree and believe she feels that way in her heart.  She looks like any other 20-something genetic girl out there, is very attractive (a hottie, actually .. whew), projects nothing but femininity and has the same spark in her eyes as her genetic girl friends.

My new friend doesn’t hate her penis nor does she think it defines her gender.  And it doesn’t.  The brain is in charge of that.

From my experience, the transguys out there seem more capable of doing this.  The surgery to make them fully functional as males is expensive, and the success rate is not high.  So most move on, strap-on in hand, and give their brain permission to define their gender.  Most are very successful and have friends, families and careers regardless of what’s in their boxer shorts.  And are dudes in every sense of the word.

My friend doesn’t hang around with others like her .. looking for “support”, whining about how nature dealt her a bad hand, and competing in hormone dosage comparisons and cup size competitions.  She (with her parents help and consent) simply did what she needed to do to feel comfortable within her own skin.

She understands womanhood totally and honestly presents like any other girl her age. No scrambling to look like she fits in. She does! Some of it might be the luck of the draw but a lot of it is definitely attitude.

Is she lucky? Maybe. Is her timing good?   Yes .. the world is so much more receptive today than it was not that many years ago.  Is she courageous?  Possibly.  But she could never be a positive example to the older girls who struggle so much. They wouldn’t allow it.

I had always found the concept of hormone therapy and gender reassignment at a very young age to be worrisome at best.  But I now understand that it’s the right time to begin living as the gender you know you were meant to be and medically supervised hormone therapy is a big help.

Funny how a relative newcomer to the t-world can help an older girl like me put things in perspective.

I hope I haven’t offended anyone with my thoughts on this and apologize if I have. But since this is a free website, you can’t ask for your money back. 🙂

I’m home.  Exhausted but it feels great to be back!

My darling Kim and I got to see even more of the US and it was beautiful.  We found Utah and Colorado particularly breathtaking.

SeleenaK_gasThe weather cooperated, and although there was some pretty ugly stuff around us, we had sunny skies every day except for two.
Here is a photo of me doing what I did quite often.  Yes, I tried my best to tone down my look while traveling, and as you can see, I’m not really good at it.  But it seemed like the prudent thing to do .. especially when I know I’ll be using the restrooms in states where I could, in fact, be breaking the law just by being in there with the women.

Anyway .. a little about my journey.

I’ve always been intrigued by Route 66 – “The Mother Road”.  For those of you who are not aware, US Route 66 has been around since the 1920’s and was the major route between Chicago and Los Angeles.  It was also know as “Main Street America” because the road went right through the middle of many American cities.  It was also featured in a television series back in the 60’s.

The road was also featured in a song written by Bobby Troup and performed by Nat King Cole, Bob Dylan, The Rolling Stones, Depeche Mode and others.

When the Interstate Highway system was built in the late 1950’s and 1960’s, the old road pretty much lost it’s relevance.  But it’s charm remains today for those who love the open road.

It’s no longer possible to travel Route 66 from Chicago to LA but pieces of it still remain, often right beside the interstate highway that made it obsolete.

SeleenaK_9978sI decided that a Rte 66 highway sign would be a great photo opportunity for yours truly so I went in search of one with a background reminiscent of the old road charm.  And I searched. Flagstaff, Winona and Kingman Arizona, Gallup New Mexico, Amarillo Texas, Oklahoma City, Joplin and St Louis Missouri for just the right photo … and found nothing.  So just as I was nearing the end of the old road, I decided it was now or never and took the photo you see here.

The area, although quite beautiful, doesn’t have the charm I was hoping to capture but it will have to do for now.  I’ll try to improve on this photo if I ever drive out west again.

It appears that Route 66 signs are a coveted item these days and theft of these particular signs is very common.  Many of the cities on the highway have now removed all of the signs like the one in my photo and instead are putting them up high with the traffic lights in an attempt to deter “collectors”. hehe!

So enough talk about travel.  That’s likely not why you’re here.

As I mentioned, the Viva Wildside event in Las Vegas was a lot of fun.  And I look forward to doing it again some day.  My only regret was that I had brought a ton of video gear all the way there and really never used it.  I was hoping to recruit someone to operate the camera and the help me with my next video production but it seemed that the guys were too busy chasing the girls and the girls just weren’t interested.  Understandable though, since partying, drinking and dancing were their main reasons for making the trip.

So I’m getting my rest now, I’ve done the laundry and am getting the patio at Casa Seleena ready for another summer.  I’ll miss having my next video ready for you on the first Friday of May but will work hard to get something shot soon.

Lots of requests for “leg show” videos coming in so I’ll likely do something like that next.

I’ll be posting an album or two in the coming weeks of photos, mostly taken by others, of some of our hijinks in Las Vegas but I’ll try to alternate them with the type of photos you’re accustomed to seeing here.

Ohhhh .. heels!  I recently bough a new part of heels from UK.  Extremely slender stiletto heels and very pointed toes.  I’ll tell you about them in my next blog entry and will feature them in an upcoming photo album or video.

Stay tuned!

Las Vegas

Las Vegas was a blast! Special thanks to Nikki and Gina for organizing the entire week. I got to see some old friends as well as meet some new one’s.

I’m not sure that Las Vegas was ready for us. On two occasions an entire casino went silent as we all walked from the hotel to the cabs.  Not my style really.  I do prefer to slip in and out under the radar but to this group, it’s all about being seen.

But the city treated us very well. Some of the girls did experience some negativity but it was from other visitors, and only from the guys. Most women think we’re pretty cool.

I found that most of the girls were very into dance clubs .. and Las Vegas has tons of great ones .. but me personally, I’d rather play “footsie’s” under the table in a piano bar than shakin’ it and sweatin’ with the 20-somethings. But that’s just me.
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Speaking of ass, here’s a pic of me headed for the strip.
I “limo’d” a little, “cabbed” often and walked way too much. But there’s no way to avoid that in Las Vegas. Even the walk from my room to get a cab was a marathon.

Will I do this particular event again? Not sure. Maybe my age is catching up with me but the dance club thing just isn’t fun anymore and I’m still of the belief that a girl doesn’t go out without stockings on. Old fashioned? Maybe .. but I like it that way, even though my style was somewhat different than many of the other girls in this particular group, where the boyish figure was quite popular.

Soooo … I know I missed a photo gallery update last week and promise to have something out there for this Friday. I only wish I could keep the video streak going on the first Friday of the month but a May 1st video is going to be pretty difficult.

I really needed to do this trip and should be home on Monday. I’m in New Mexico right now and am hoping to get my life back to normal soon.

I’ll try to post some candids from Las Vegas as they become available.

On The Road to Sin City – Day 6

I’m here! The last day of the drive was the most breathtaking of all. The Zion area of Utah was gorgeous and the small area of Arizona that I passed through might very well be the most rugged and breathtaking the state has to offer with the exception of the Grand Canyon.

But the real excitement started when we got the the hotel. Met my dear friend Lola at the hotel registration desk and after a quick freshening up, we all met at the Wildside hospitality suite and took limos to PF Chang’s for a wonderful dinner. Nikki, Gina, Ashley, Amy, Dale, Jackie, Petey, Glenda, Niya, Sandra, Lola, Angie, Emily, Rachel, Kate and Heather … all gorgeous and smiling.

Most went dancing after dinner, but the weariest travelers returned to the hotel.

CiCi, Joey, Bunny, Nicole and Lee Ann will be here soon to join us.

I’m not sure if I’ll be able to give you a day-by-day recap on my activities here but I do expect to share some photos with you as they become available.

On The Road to Sin City – Day 5

Wow!!!  The view from the Seleena-mobile was surreal today.  The Colorado Rockies are gorgeous as is Vail and and the other small ski resort towns in the area.  Temperature in the mountains was in the high 50’s and very sunny, and the ski hills were very much alive.

But things got even more dramatic in Utah. I’ve been a big fan of the Arizona desert for several years but I have to tell you; AZ has nothing on UT when comes to raw, pristine, mountainous desert.  If I wasn’t supposed to be in Vegas on Monday, I’d still be a few hundred miles east of here, staring in disbelief.  Red rock, black rock, gold rock, blue rock with just a touch of snow for emphasis.

High desert temperatures in the mid 70’s. Perfect.

I know .. you don’t read this blog to hear about scenery and I normally don’t write about this kind of thing but really, everyone needs to see this once in their lifetime.

Regarding the bimbo adventure; nothing eventful today. Interesting glances at fuels stops and rest areas but that’s it. And traveling all day in stockings and heels is actually quite comfortable. But I’m not really a good judge of “comfortable or not”.

One more day on the road and I’m there!

On The Road to Sin City – Day 4

Well, Kansas is … Kansas. And it appears that storms provide a lot of the excitement here.  Not fair to make that observation, I know, but I call ’em as I see ’em.  Topeka did seem very nice though.  It would be cool to return some day to explore.

The sunny weather came to a screeching halt just inside the Colorado border.  Some serious rain all the way into Denver.  But it has stopped raining now and a gorgeous crescent moon is lighting up the sky.

I think tomorrow is going to be a beautiful drive. Into the Rockies and well into Utah.

Speaking of Utah, does anyone want to marry me?  I think having multiple spouses is okay here .. but be prepared.  You’ll have to help with my stocking budget. *giggling*

On The Road to Sin City – Day 3

I’m into the “hunker down and drive” part of the trip.  The weather is cooperating and the landscape is .. hmmm .. vast.  I still haven’t freaked anybody out and I’m happy for that.  Hopefully I’ll have more to report tomorrow.

Oh .. and I wasn’t able to get a new website photo album ready for my usual Friday update.  I’m sorry!  I’ll do my best to have one ready for next week.

On The Road to Sin City – Day 2

It’s the heels.  It’s always the heels!  Not so much the height but the heels .. many women along the way are much taller than me.  But “click, click, click” into a restaurant or rest area and heads turn.  Oh well.  All has been cool so far.  Although those signs that say “No firearms permitted in the visitor’s center” are a little unnerving.  Why would anyone consider bring a gun to the bathroom?  In case there’s no “tissue” and you need to get assertive?

The temperature has been rising since turning southwest from Lake Erie and that city with the big arch thingy was in the low 90’s today.  Yum!  Spring has really taken hold here.

The truck drivers are nice to me.  They like to try to drive beside me as I pass them .. I think to protect me from evil.  Thanks guys!

Had a quick visit and a nice dinner today and now it’s time for some “chillaxing” before heading into the land of Dorothy and Toto tomorrow in the rain. “Ad astra per aspera” .. yikes!

Latex wear would be appropriate except for the leather seats.

On The Road to Sin City – Day 1

I’m on the road headed for a “bimbo-thon” in “Sin City”!

Day One .. in boi-mode today because I didn’t want any problems getting into the US.  Great weather for driving though I only got as far as south western OH after 8 hours on the road.  But all is good!  I hope to have some pics to share eventually but nothing yet.

But you know, it’s no wonder I tend to draw attention when doing road trips like this.  Most women dress like they’re going out to work in the garden when traveling.  I know .. ‘but I need to be comfortable”.  Yeah .. whatever.  You’re not exactly working up a sweat running across the country.

Thank gawd I get to travel with my Kim. She’s gorgeous, even when on the road!

Sleepy now. zzz zzz zzzz

My New Video, Road Trip Preparations and Life in General

It’s been a while since I’ve updated my blog here.   I thought it was time I took a few minutes to tell you what’s been happening in my life.

Although there have been a few “close but no cigar” situations, nothing much has changed for me.  I’m still in search of a gig I can sink my teeth into.  There have been a few close calls but in the end it appears I’m on my own to build something to keep my motivation level up.  I have no doubt that exciting things will happen.

A couple girls have passed through my life recently and as I mentioned to both of them, my only hope is that they’re better off for having known me.  As much as long-term friendship is my goal, sometimes it’s just not to be .. and that’s okay.

My video business is showing signs of promise and I’m working hard for nothing but experience and portfolio pieces right now.  But I’m getting better at the craft so it’s all good.

I got to read a screenplay that a girlfriend wrote and was blown away with it’s potential.  A very gritty drama about “girls like us”.  In my dream world, I could work with her to make it come to life .. but in reality, I wish her well with it.  She lives in Los Angeles and has access to people in the industry. It really is deserving of attention and recognition.

The very short list of guys in my life are still there for me.  I just wish I could be there for them too but I just can’t be right now.

I’ve been asked to help a friend rework her business and I jumped at the opportunity!  More on this as my involvement becomes clearer.

I opened the purse slightly to let some high heel money escape!  I fell in love with a rather unique shoe line from the UK, but I messed up on the sizing when I placed my order so I’m waiting for the correct size to arrive.  More to come on them, including photos, when they arrive.  Very sexy stilettos!

Ohhhhh .. before I forget to mention it, my latest video is out today.  It’s part 2 of my “Just Another Day” series.  The weather finally improved enough for me to shoot some of it outdoors .. even though southern Ontario looks pretty gloomy in March.  Hope you like it!

And lastly, I’m beginning to prepare for yet another “Bimbo Across America” road trip.  My darling Kim and I will be headed to the southwest US again, but on a little tighter budget this time.  The highlight of this trip will be meeting up with the “Wildside” girls (and guys) in Las Vegas.  I’ve met a few of them in person before and am looking forward to meeting many others who I’ve known only in the cyber world.

I’m once again considering blogging the entire trip here on my site, including photos along the way, but am not sure how much demand there is for that.  I also don’t know how much energy I’ll have each night after a long day on the road.  And there will be one or two parts of the trip that I might not want to share with you (wink, wink)

Shooting My Next Video

Spring is in the air!  I know, “keep your panties on Seleena!  Winter may not be over yet “.  But it feels soooo good.

I spent a wonderful day in Toronto this week with my dearest friends and even got to shoot some outdoor video so the second installment of my “Just Another Day” video should be available here early in April.

It was a humbling experience having two totally gorgeous girls help me with my video but they were kind to me and extremely helpful.  Thank you Dina and Lianne!  I now better understand my limitations as a video model and will script accordingly in the future but with some careful editing I think I can get another pretty decent video together.  Your reaction and comments will tell me if I’m correct.

On another note, I’ve begun high level preparations for my upcoming “Bimbo Across America” road trip (haha!).  More to come on that in future blog entries.

Deleted Blog Entry – Yep

Okay .. I told myself I would never do this but I’ve deleted a blog entry. My “Happy New Year! Would you like fries with that?” entry was apparently more negative than it was intended to be and has caused some concern with those who read it.  I’m sorry!

I thought about rewriting it .. paying more attention to how it could be perceived but decided that sometimes things are better left unsaid .. and my personal situation and feelings are one of those things.

Please forgive me for breaking the number one rule for bloggers .. I’ll be more careful in the future.

End of 2009 Summary

2009 is drawing to a close.  And what a year it’s been.

The terrorists have succeeded even further in changing the way we all live.   The “hopey changey” guy running the US has done nothing positive at all and has alienated allies, shown weakness to the bad guys and has split the country more than any of his predecessors.  Terrorist attacks are on the rise. The economy is still in shambles.  Political correctness is digging the hole even deeper.  Checkbook journalism and partisan coverage is tainting the news we see and read.  And the future looks anything but rosy for so many right now.

On the bright side, maybe this is an adjustment we all need.

But opinions are like penises .. everybody has one (don’t they? teehee!) and my opinion on world affairs is definitely not the reason you come to my site.

The New Year resolution I made at the beginning of this year was a horrible failure.  I’m no closer to walking gracefully in ballet heels than I was in January so I’ll make a different type of resolution this time around.

I resolve to smile more!  Simple, huh?  I hope it is.  People in my life come and go, and as hard as that can be at times, I resolve to cherish the moments as they happen instead of mostly cherishing the memories.  Yes, cherish the moments as they happen!

Joni Mitchell once sang “you don’t know what you’ve got ’til it’s gone” .. there’s much wisdom in that single line.  And Seleena K once said “if we were supposed to cherish things that are behind us, we’d all be able to smile with our butts”.  Not nearly as wise as Joni’s line but you know where I’m coming from.

Although Kim will always be the most important person in my life .. my one and only .. I really hope to also share a smile with you in the coming year.

Happy New Year!

My New Video Camera .. and Dina

An Exciting Couple of Weeks

Although still photos have always been my thing, I’ve always been intrigued by video.   Many have told me that seeing movement .. body language .. seems lots more intimate than still photos.   So based on these comments, and my own curiosity, I decided it was time to upgrade my rather inexpensive video camera.   And what better way to get familiar with it than to do a video for my site.   Please check it out in my Video Gallery.  Although I’m not that thrilled with my appearance in this one, I like the quality of the picture (even after YouTube’s compression) and am proud of the job I did behind the camera .. lighting, editing, sound, music, etc.   Hopefully the look and feel of my “story” is a little more “professional” and interesting than much of what you see out there.   Comments are appreciated!

On another topic … in an attempt to provide you with some exciting “out and about” photos I’ve been searching for a photographer to help me out.  Although I have nothing concrete to report just yet, I’ve made a couple contacts that are very promising.  With their help, I hope to be able to add some interesting photos here in the coming days and months.  The weather here is getting cold and the snow will be here soon, so I might get off to a slow start with this but it’s coming.

Since I obviously can’t pay someone to do photos of me for my free website, finding a reciprocal arrangement is very important to me.   Offers to “help you out” are wonderful and greatly appreciated but I just can’t be benefiting from someone’s good nature over the long term.

So .. I’m really hoping that one of my new contacts can benefit from some of my abilities (not that, you perv!) in exchange.

And lastly … Dina Paige!  OMG!  I finally got to meet her and made a new friend in the process.  Dina owns a service based in Toronto that’s exactly what girls like us need in our lives.  She’s a Transgender Self Improvement Professional and is here to help us with everything from make-up to lifestyle coaching to photography sessions to referrals and references.DinaAtTheBar

Dina’s a gorgeous girl with a sweet personality, has been through all of the “issues” most of us are dealing with and has emerged a winner .. rock solid, successful, happy and with an energy and zest for life that’s contagious.  I’ll be working with her to find ways that I can help promote her services.   Stay tuned, but for now, please check out her website.

Please don’t be fooled by Dina’s glamorous look here (my choice of photos, not hers 🙂 .  She really is one of the most approachable people you’ll ever meet, and whether you’re a casual weekend dresser or have begun living 24/7 as a female, Dina understands and is here to help.  Sit beside her, look into her eyes, hear her words, and her commitment to your happiness will become obvious.

Girls, please don’t go through the expense and frustration of time-consuming trial and error, like I did, in an attempt to get your look (and your act) together.  A few smart dollars spent up front can save you lots of time, money and frustration in the long term.  You owe it to yourself to allow the world to see beauty that’s inside you.  You’ll be surprised at the positive energy you receive in return.

Do I sound excited?  I am! .. and no, I’m not getting a sales commission.

Gifts for Moi?

In an attempt to generate some excitement here I’ve decided that I should start accepting gifts.  Over the last two years there have been quite a few offers to send me small gifts in appreciation for my continuing effort to keep this free website going.  Although I was honoured by each and every offer, I felt the need to decline.

I guess I was worried about having others guide my direction in some small way.  But in declining as I did, I missed out on some wonderful opportunities to interact with those of you who value this thing I do.

No, I’m not expecting truckloads of expensive clothing, heels, lingerie and jewels to appear at my door regularly.  But a trickle of small tokens of your appreciation might help me keep moving forward.

I’ve also decided that I would start considering your requests to buy some of my personal items and photos.  I think some of you would like to wear the clothing you’ve seen in my photos and some would simply like to have them because it helps personify what you read and see here.

So gifts?  Send them.  Would you like to send me something to wear in photos and return to you immediately afterwards?  I can do that.  Let’s talk.  Want worn panties or stockings sent to you in a zip lock bag?  Please let me know.  Photo prints?  Sure.

I’m also looking at doing a calendar, creating wallpaper for your computer screen and DVD slide shows of my photos in high resolution.

Not only will it help me to get a little closer to you, in all honesty it excites me to think that you’re touching, caressing and smelling things that were once mine.  It makes my panties wet!

And to raise the gift incentive a little, those who send something this way will have the option of getting on my mailing list for at least the next year.  An email from me at the first of every month including a high res large photo picked from those added to my Photo Gallery that month.

Repeat gift givers (two or more gifts in the same calendar year) will also have the option of receiving a personalized Christmas and Valentines Day card from me via snail mail.

Just let me know your discretion requirements and I’ll do my best to make it work for you.

If you don’t feel inclined to send gifts in these tough economic times, I totally understand.  Please keep coming back and comment when you feel inclined to do so.

I really want to be more to you than just an occasional mouse click.  Help me to do this for you .. and for me!

Friendship

Today I’m going to talk about friendship.  Something I’m feeling a little short on these days.

I’ve always been a very private person; someone who would rather have a few very close friends than a hundred casual friends.  It’s always been that way for me.  But I never realized how important friendship was to my own peace of mind until recently.

Having a close friend can be hard work but pays huge dividends, both to the heart and to the head.  And although privacy is something that might very well reduce complication and drama, it isolates.

I’ve worked so hard to maintain my privacy, both for myself and to protect those close to me, (especially as it relates to my gender bending activities) and I’ve been quite successful, only letting a very few get close.  But when you put all your “friendship eggs” in the one basket, things can change .. and they have.

First, I lost someone close to me to an evil disease.  Then a friendship or two faded when my work situation changed. Also, another was lost when my feelings of friendship were met with something I perceived as infatuation.  And lastly, a little closeness was lost with another due to … well … I’m not really sure.

Due to my perceived need for privacy, I’ve been distant when many have reached out to me; partly because I was worried they would invade my space at an inopportune time, partly to avoid potential drama, and partly because I felt that having sex with me was their only motive.

So my suggestion to all my “sisters in heels” out there, please try to keep some balance between your privacy and your social life, and please consider that when life gets a little bumpy, a “guy in a skirt” might be there to hold your hand.


I’m Lost

Whiney Bimbo Rant

Maybe it’s the “dog days of summer”. Maybe it’s the next step in my evolution. Maybe I’ve been looking in the wrong places. Maybe it’s my new-found freedom (I have a lot more available time now). Maybe it’s the difficult July gone by. But my motivation and creativity are at a low point. Thank gawd for Kim. She’s always been the most consistent, most supportive force in my life.

I know I’m motivated by commitment. When I worked, I was committed to my job, my company, and I think I did well. And I was looking for this project, this little website, to take it’s place. It has, and it’s hasn’t.

One thing I learned about doing this site …. I’m doing it alone. Although I find it exciting, that excitement is hard to maintain when everyone else seems indifferent. I know, if I’m not doing it for myself I shouldn’t be doing it at all. And maybe that’s the harsh reality.

So I need to dig down to find something in here that “turns my crank”. Something that keeps me going.

It may be time for some changes. I’ve been thinking long and hard lately about my chatroom .. the one here on this site. It may have outlived it’s usefulness. I dunno.

The message board that I scrapped several months ago. I’ve learned a lot about website building in the last year and could now come up with something that’s much more user-friendly. Maybe it needs to come back. I dunno.

Business. The commitment and excitement I might feel when I’m providing a service could be all the motivation I need.  A pay site? Merchandise sales? Photog services?  I dunno, but rest assured that if I venture into this area, I’ll be totally professional.

Hmmm .. excitement!  Maybe that’s it.  I’m beginning to feel that if I don’t generate some soon … well, you know.

My site is coming up on it’s one year anniversary in a couple weeks and I’ve gone from an average of 6 hits per day in the first month to just under 150 hits per day now, and I’ve had over 17,000 people enter via my main page.  Okay, but not great.

Please know that I’m aware I’m behind on my Photo Gallery updates, but I’ve shot quite a bit yet don’t feel that I’ve done anything worthy of being here.

So .. change the site or change my attitude regarding it. Something’s needs to change. I owe it to you .. and to myself.