As the year draws to a close I thought I’d take a few moments to reflect .. cliché, I know.
It’s really been a “close but no cigar” year for me. My every day life has been wonderful although a little frustrating at times .. hehe!. And I continue to look for a friendship in the T-Girl community with someone who understands.
Mid way through the year I came to the conclusion that “being there” for anyone who needed me was taking it’s toll on me emotionally so I decided I needed to stop that. Of course those closest to me can always count on my undying support but I’ve been successful in not getting involved with other girls who need someone to talk to or someone to help them over the bumps that life throws at girls like us. It’s going against my nature to not help but it’s something I need to do.
I scared a few people on YouTube who can’t read (teehee!), provided support (the last time) for a few girls who needed that, bruised a huge ego irreparably, provided a little “jerkin’ material” for a few guys (at least), met just over 50 of my online girlfriends in person, renovated my studio and did a little traveling. Even had a little health issue that cleared itself totally prior to scheduled minor surgery. And our best friends from the desert came to visit. That was definitely a highlight of my year!
All in all, a great 2010.
In my “web bimbo” world, things are changing. I used to attract visitors who were simply appreciative of my efforts. The comments, compliments and occasional gift I received appeared to be from the heart and came with no strings. But there’s been a shift towards demands, expectations and the relentless pursuit of specific interests. And it’s wearing thin. Please .. ask once, twice maybe, then drop it. It’s not only about you! *giggling* Please know that if the intent is to compliment, it’s having the reverse affect.
I think my photos have improved and that makes me feel great! I still wish I had some help doing “out and about” pics but for now I’ll continue to do what I can solo, and with the help of an occasional “guest photographer” whenever the opportunity presents itself.
I’m hoping to rewrite my website code this year to make it a little more friendly to all browsers as well as handhelds. It’s currently optimized for Internet Explorer and looks a little strange with some of the other browsers.
But the biggest change I’m considering is to move to a pay site format. I never thought I could get my heart around that concept but only doing things for others, and for free, is a (big) emotional and (small) financial drain on me. The content would be very inexpensive since it isn’t about the money at all. I just need the site to feel a little more give-and-take.
So, from everyone here at SeleenaK dot com (I always wanted to say that but there’s only Kim and I here .. hehe!), have a Happy New Year!
May 2011 be your very best year ever!